Its been a while

Its been a while since I felt this way. Last time things didn't turn out so good, and I'm afraid this time is only going to lead to pain as well.

Life really hurts. It hurts.

I think I'm in love with Mr. Toddrick. He's just so amazing. I don't even know how to describe him to you, or how he makes me feel. I want to get to know him better but I'm too afraid to talk to him. I'm so scared. I wouldn't be able to handle him rejecting me.

I want to tell him how I feel, but its so scary.

Going to class is going to be a lot more painful again. As I sit in class, silent, wanting to say something, but the words just won't come.

I wonder if anyone else has ever been in my situation and had it come out where they weren't rejected.

You know, I don't even know if he's gay or not.

This sucks.